Hi. My name is Celine, born in Manila in the year 1992 but I grew up in Surigao and lived there for more than half of my life. I city jumped for a while but now, I live in Pampanga.
I graduated with a 5-year Bachelor’s degree in Electronics Engineering and became a college professor straight out of college. While teaching Physics and higher math was fun, the pay was horrible and the management sucked so I left.
In the hopes of increasing my market value, I decided to travel and work out of the province which is roughly 39 miles away (the commute was horrible by the way). My plan worked and my market value increased by 10%. But answering calls and handling very irate clients was not my thing. At that time I was also suffering from this weird allergy to dust and whatnot brought on by my recent withdrawal of alcohol (a post for another day), I had to resign and go back to the province.
For a year since then, I was officially unemployed, depressed, and I didn’t know what to do with my life. I was so insecure that even though I am receiving calls for jobs that I didn’t apply to and acing my phone interviews, I couldn’t bring myself to step out of the house and face the world. Everything was not right with me and I blamed my allergies – I became obsessed with cleanliness and picky when it came to food. Fast food chains for me at that time was a breeding ground for bacteria. I would often cringe when I felt or saw that the table in front of me was sticky or had some amount of dust on top of it.
The only time I can bring myself to get out of the house is when my mom would take me to Divisoria or Quiapo, specifically the craft supplies stores. I’d be happy to see all the beads, stones, charms, paper, fabrics, feathers, hoops, and wood despite feeling sticky because of sweat, tired because of all the walking, and smelly because of the pollution. My bacteria nightmares were out of sight.
This was the start of my personal rehabilitation. I started creating jewelry and handcrafted whatchamacallits. I also attempted to sell them online, a few pieces got sold but I didn’t have a solid business plan and it was only more of a hobby so it didn’t actually boom as I would have hoped.
Gradually I was beginning to have confidence in myself because of the positive feedback I am getting online from people I know and those I don’t. And when I realized that I was finally ready to face the world again, I didn’t want to be an Engineer. While I loved solving puzzles and mysteries, Electronics Engineering wasn’t what I wanted to do.
All my life, I had been passionate about the art of design and I had always been fascinated with marketing. But I thought I had to focus on just one part of marketing where the design was involved. Lo and behold, I took online courses and joined webinars at 1 til 3 in the morning (because most of the hosts are from the West) and became a self-taught Social Media Specialist whose skillset dominates in engaging media and design.
By chance, I took up a job as a Marketing Virtual Assistant in a start-up BPO company in Clark, Pampanga. I stayed there for a whole year but I’ve known that half-way through my stay, the company wasn’t the right fit for me. I realized it when I felt depressed, overworked, and worthless. I felt more of like a placeholder rather than a piece to a puzzle. I felt ill and often times cannot bring myself to get out of my apartment. So I left.
Since then no other company had been the right fit for me. So in a huge leap of faith, I decided to work from home, freelance, and start a blog.
I know that I’m not the only struggling millennial in this digital world. If you’re reading this, I’d love to know your backstory. I would like to hear about a major shift in your life or the moment you made a decision that had a big impact. Comment them below and let’s help and inspire each other to take action!